Recent thoughts and views..phew been a whole year!

It's been quite a long time since I have blogged and there have been some things bothering me lately. Been wanting to get a journal or something to write all this stuff down..but I have no money at the moment and figured that blogging would be just as good. So boyfriend and I have been together for a year and a half now..(oh by the way. I recently turned 20..sigh yes) and we are currently living together in a cute one bedroom basement suite. It's affordable for both of us since we dont have to pay utilities and laundry. :D We've been through a lot of ups and downs, and to be honest, even him and I both know that this relationship shouldn't be working..but love makes us blind and do silly things. And we both do love each other...(if you end up reading this cody green i love you).

Anyway, I have recenlty been engulfed in an interesting anime called Nana. Basically it's about two women aged 20 who lead very different lives but have the same name. They coincidentally meet on a train both going to Toyko, hit it off, live together and become best friends. One Nana is a young woman who wants to lead an independent life and hopes to become famous with her band. the other Nana (whom they call Hachiko) wishes to find true love and happiness. This anime intrigues me because it's very realistic as to what women can feel. For one, Nana wishes to be independent and live the way that she wants to be..so she's very career driven and has to fight for everything. While Hachiko just wishes to find love through many many many trial and errors. She gets hurt and falls a guy because she lusts for him, yet she knows that there is another who truly loves her and she wants to love him back. To many people it may seem really stupid because Hachiko can't make up her mind..but I believe that many people fall in love because of lust (I don't believe is TRUE love..but love none the less) and that confuses her. It doesn't make Hachiko a slut or a spoiled brat..it just makes her confused. It's pretty interesting watching the two very different Nanas lead their lives while living in the same life..if that makes any sense.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Yay! I'm 19 today, and my boyfriend and I discussed some major issues that we deperately needed to get ahead of us. Things are well between him and I, but school is still another issue. *sigh* The admissions officer then tells me that they do an acceptance in June from the waitlist into the program..uh? What? So what does that mean...oh well. I tried emailing her to ask her again, but no reply, but I'll probably phone on Monday to make some arrangements with the Nursing Program advisor. Ai ya! This is all such a pain. I'm starting swimming again on Monday morning, cheers to getting in shape and being HAPPY again! WOOOO!

Jumping to Conclusions

My parents, I just realized, love to jump to conclusions. Everything to them is just so black and white, yet they never see how much grey there is in this world. Just like homosexuality. What is so wrong about a man loving another man? Or a woman loving another woman? These people are willing to express themselves against the ways of popular opinion and societies norms because they believe in being themselves. So many people nowadays are trying to be someone else to impress others. Who's there to impress? We have neighbors who are two women living together, and apparently one acts like a man, so they automatically assume that these two women are lesbian. The neighbors have parties that are all women? Hey, ever heard of a girls night out? I mean, they have not seen solid evidence about these two women being lesbian. I mean, if they went out together, held hands and kissed or something, that would be an entirely different story. I dont doubt that my neighbors are lesbian, and even if they are, it's none of our business. Like Russell Peters states "I love it how people concern themselves with things that have nothing to do with them."

Innocent stereotype, ruined.

And so, I have been put onto the waitlist as I have mentioned before. I emailed the admissions officer to ask about the program in the winter, and it turns out that there isn't. Plus! I'm like.40-45 on the waitlist. Better just go into the program hey? Not going to school feels like there's nothing to do seriously. I really don't like it. It's like when I'm working..but I have nothing to do. So anyway, onto lighter things. I really miss my boyfriend. I had a cousin ask me today if I missed him and I told her hell yes I did! then she asked me on a scale of 1-10 how much I liked him, I told her 9. Where's the extra point? Well damn, no one's perfect. Besides, you can't measure these things! He's doing so much for me, I can't let him down you know!

I heard there's another school shooting in Toronto, and some teenager got killed. What is the world coming to these days? Children, killing other children? That just totally ruins the innocent stereotype that we have for childhood. Isn't childhood something happy and joyous? And isn't the school place supposed to be someplace that is safe and educationtional for kids and teens and young adults? Geez, sometimes I wonder if we're going to have to get life insurance just for going to school!

Waitlisted!??!

Well I finally got my final letter from CNC about my application status into their nursing program. Woo hoo, I was waitlisted. You know what that f-ing means? That's just a nice way of saying nah, you're not smart enough to do this program, so we're going to give you some false hope by saying that you MIGHT get in. If you're lucky. It's so upsetting. The only reason that I'm going down to PG for school is for my boyfriend. He's down there waiting for me, and if I don't go down there to be with him, I think I'm going to explode, never mind him! Plus, PG does have a good nursing program so it's almost like a bonus. But then they fucking tell me that I'm waitlisted?!? What the hell is that supposed to mean? I met all their criteria. God damn it, education should be a right, not for the elite. I want to be smart, but I'm not allowed too. That's what they're saying!

first entry.

This is just a trial run..what does this thing do anyway? Watching a series called Rome right now, for those of you who like crazy stuff (and I mean along the lines of blood, gore, violence, sex, lesbianism, incest, assassinations etc etc.) with a hint of history, this is actually pretty good. I previously attempted to watch it, but a lot of the episodes took place at night, and considering how old and tarnished my old monitor was I could hear voices, but see no pictures. :P So now we got a new computer with a very nice monitor, and now I can hear voices, AND! see pictures!